All those times I waited for you
Praying for that conciliatory chance
Wasting away in a caffeinated crater
Performing scenarios in a mental trance.
A fool taking part in an onerous game
Your mysterious aura deemed unfair
Hope versus grace in a bruising brawl
Desires misaligned with roads to nowhere.
Memories now spill anxiety’s blood
From time-wasted wounds that sting like ice
In that cold dark cave north of the tracks
Where my external timidity paid an internal price.
This unrelenting pain now dull and can’t cut
Has become my slave as I mandate its order
It daily seeks to flee my subliminal snare
While its world is reduced to my compulsory borders.
So as I continue to mold this malleable misery
As I waste away in these caffeinated craters
I’ll bolster this pain with a reluctant ransom
Hoping grace will outclass your unconcealed disfavor.